This account was written by a very dear friend of mine.
To my eternal consternation and regret I was the one that invited she and her sister to the Dade City church, thereby inducing her in the cult.
There are so many decision and words I would take back if I had the chance.
Inviting her to attend the cult with me is the action I wish most desperately to take back.
Thankfully she is still my friend and has never made me feel guilty or responsible for introducing her into this life of horror.
I am proud to say she thrives, a fulfilled woman unshackled by her past.
God bless you, Friend.
I remember thinking where were all the kids , not realizing that "the church kids" I were my age, but were dressed and looked as if they were in there 20's and 30's.
The girls wore dresses and skirts that I had seen at the "old lady " departments in Dillard's and Bealls.
The boys were wearing dress coats and old style pants that I had seen on older men of their 50's.I couldn't even imagine conforming to wearing those clothes and styling my hair the way they did.
Well soon after we starting school, I was immersed into how kind I was treated and gifts started to get laid down at my feet. I was honored with "people person" and varies other awards. I couldn't help but think WOW they must really think I'm special and I just ate it up ! I began staying after school more and helping around the church property with the "church kids". Slowly I fell into a pit of FALSE LOVE.
To my eternal consternation and regret I was the one that invited she and her sister to the Dade City church, thereby inducing her in the cult.
There are so many decision and words I would take back if I had the chance.
Inviting her to attend the cult with me is the action I wish most desperately to take back.
Thankfully she is still my friend and has never made me feel guilty or responsible for introducing her into this life of horror.
I am proud to say she thrives, a fulfilled woman unshackled by her past.
God bless you, Friend.
My Sister and I entered "the Cult" life when I was 12 and she was 10 when our parents enrolled us into what seems a very innocent church/school.
Unbeknown to my parents this was a very big mistake. They were quite impressed by the warm greeting they received from the teacher and principal , even some of the church members greeted us with extreme courtesy.
I remember thinking where were all the kids , not realizing that "the church kids" I were my age, but were dressed and looked as if they were in there 20's and 30's.
The girls wore dresses and skirts that I had seen at the "old lady " departments in Dillard's and Bealls.
The boys were wearing dress coats and old style pants that I had seen on older men of their 50's.I couldn't even imagine conforming to wearing those clothes and styling my hair the way they did.
Well soon after we starting school, I was immersed into how kind I was treated and gifts started to get laid down at my feet. I was honored with "people person" and varies other awards. I couldn't help but think WOW they must really think I'm special and I just ate it up ! I began staying after school more and helping around the church property with the "church kids". Slowly I fell into a pit of FALSE LOVE.
The Principal asked me and my sister to call her Granny and made us feel obligated to give her Grandmother cards for Mother's day and Birthday presents on her birthday.
In fact I will never forget her birthday and it was always a feeling of panic that came over the church on what gift would be honored to her sight.
Me being the very observant person that I am, watched consistently to see the give and take of what I thought was a "family" love.
Everyone was called Sister and Brother, and if you were really blessed in her sight than some were called Aunt and Uncle.
My sister and I began going to every service Tuesday night, Wed Night, Sat Night , Sunday Morning and Sunday Night....each service we hid the many journals we were made to write it from our parents. "Granny" made us think our parents were "worldly " and "living for men", so we began to rebel against them, saying that our "real family" was on that hill (the cult) and that we wanted to walk with God.
Looking back I know I hurt my parents probably very deeply for some of the comments we made to them. Unlike the families in the church we owned TV's and had pants in our closets, this gave us the advantage to stay in tact with everyday life. But when my family wanted to get together to go swimming or the movies we made excuses that we were too busy and didn't want to join them.
We became the "CHURCH KIDS" and with that title we were ridiculed in church for having " the look of Satan" on our faces and I in particular wanted to sleep with every man in church and was called several times at Harlot and had the Spirit of Lust allllll over me.
My Sister had the Spirit of Pride and was told that she was getting fat and could start wearing the pastor's hand me downs (sizes 16 plus) she was humiliated over and over again. We were matched with two boys in the church and we told that it was the Lord's perfect plan for us to be there for them.
There are many stories of pain I could write , but the one incident that stopped the insanity of following this false love was a prayer meeting on the Tuesday night before Feb 4th (my sister's birthday).
My so called "Granny" shook me violently in front of all the church members and screamed into my ear that "I was letting the Lusting Spirit take over my life". Well to my sister that was the straw that broke the camels back.
That night she went home to our parents and told them everything that was going on for 6 years while we were there. I begged her not to, but later on realized how right she was for reaching out for help.
The next day my parents withdrew us out of school and we were pulled away, literally forever from those (sisters, aunts, uncles, brothers) we loved and depended on while we were in that place.....they looked at us in horror and I'm sure some of them wished they could go with us.
It was like we had to learn how to live all over again, we were so hidden for so many years.
Just what we all need
More lies about the World
That never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when your pretending
But I know she....
That never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
Without a mask
Where will you hide
Can't find yourself
Lost in your lies
I Know the TRUTH now
I Know who you are
And I don't love you anymore
By Blinded By False Love
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